My vision is to travel the world inspiring and empowering women to recognize their personal power and Divinity. I wish that I could say manifesting my vision has been easy. Quite the contrary, it’s actually been the most challenging thing I’ve ever done next to learning to love myself. Every step of the way, I’ve had to face my greatest opposition – the woman in the mirror. Yes, ME. I’d been the one dreaming the dreams. At the same time, I’ve was the one doubting and sabotaging the manifestation of them.
Ever since I was a child, I’ve wanted to teach. I remember teaching imaginary classes in the bathroom at age 3. As I got older, I would jump at opportunities to hear guest speakers at school or church (especially women). There was something so powerful and purposeful about seeing a woman take ownership of a room. Each time, I heard or saw them share messages or teach lessons, it quickened something in me. It didn’t matter if it was a speech on toilet paper or teen pregnancy. I was inspired and motivated. I wanted to be up there with her; giving the speech. So much so, that I remember how my heart tingled each time I heard public speakers. I would think of how wonderful it would be if I could do what she was doing.
What I know now, is the tingling was my essence responding to the reflection of my future self. The mistake most people make when looking at themselves in a mirror is they judge what they see. Trust me, I was no different. Every time I felt the joy rising from my essence, my ego immediately sounded off all the reasons why I could never be a teacher or a public speaker. I didn’t think I was worthy to stand in front of a group of people and share a message or tell a story or teach a lesson. My self-talk sounded like….You’re not smart enough. You’re not pretty enough. You’re not articulate enough. You don’t have the credentials. You don’t have a message. As a matter of fact you need to be listening to someone with credentials give you a message.
Truthfully, in some cases I was right. I need to study, cultivate, and heal myself. In other cases, these were all lies I was telling myself and I believe every one of them. It took a while for me to come to my senses. Eventually, I allowed my essence to answer this question…Why not me? This thing stirring in the very core of me came from an intangible place. A place where only me and the presence of Goddess reside. What other credentials could I possibly need to be worthy? I mean the Divine Mother within was calling. Up until this point, I was responding, 'WAIT! I'm not ready, yet! I know you are the Creator of the Universe but I need someone else to tell me that I’m qualified to do. Sometimes I have to laugh at myself. I’m not saying the host of courses, books, therapy, coaching, & life experience I’ve gone through to become the wise woman that I AM was unnecessary. I simply recognized, NOW, that EVERYTHING I needed to get here was in me all along.
The 2nd Hurdle in manifesting my vision, was getting clear about what I wanted to create. Childhood sexual trauma ignited a desire in me to help survivors of sexual abuse. However, I had no idea how to help them or what lessons I wanted to teach them. I was blinded with victim consciousness and could only see the world through the eyes of guilt, blame, & shame. Eventually, overwhelming anxiety and stress helped me to recognize that trying to help others without healing myself didn’t work. So I began to peel back the layers of my pain.
As I got back to the essence of me, my vision for how I wanted to contribute to the world transformed with me. It wasn’t just about helping woman overcome sexual abuse. It’s ending abuse, period! The way I choose to do this is by providing women with life skills to heal the child within, parent functionally, live purposefully, and become spiritually aware.
Faith without works is dead-James 2:14, KJV. A plan will open doors for you but it requires a step to cross the threshold. My 3rd Hurdle to manifesting my VISION was all about BEING IN ACTION.
It required me to be scared of failing and still take action to create my VISION.
It required me to be scared of succeeding and still take action to create my VISION.
It required me to fear rejection and still take action to create my VISION.
It required me to risk losing the security of family, friends and finances and still take action to create my VISION.
The payoff for being afraid and still taking action to manifest my WILL began as a preschooler playing school. Now, it comes as a I live well and love myself first and best. The icing on the cake, is watching the wisdom of my experience transform a student from a caterpillar to a butterfly. My heart gets happy when I’m fulfilling my purpose. JOY UNSPEAKABLE! PRICELESS!!!!
The thing that’s calling you to GREATNESS did not accidently fall into your mind and heart. It has been purposefully placed there. Faith is the substance of things hoped for and the evidence of things not seen (Hebrews11:1,KJV). When most people hear this scripture, they automatically think of faith in God. May this article remind you to also exercise:
FAITH in YOURSELF
YOU ARE WORTHY OF YOUR VISION
SEEK CLARITY ABOUT YOUR VISION
TAKE CONSISTENT ACTION TO CREATE